3rd day after surger......

I am laying in bed and thinking of how God is so good! Well, it's the 3rd day after my surgery....and feeling a whole lot better than yesterday!! The Lord is my great physican!! I pray that it will not come back!! I leave all the details to the Lord!! The girls have been gone for 4 days. I miss them like crazy!! I know God is with my always!! That gives me peace and rest!!

Thinking of Mom.....

She was in much pain.......glassy look.........needed morphine that did not touch the paint this time last year. Oh.....she is in heaven dining with Jesus! I wonder what she's doing right now! Probably singing in her wonderful singing voice! One day we will sing together! I just miss her so much!! This year has gone by fast.....I must say it is getting easier.....especially knowing that she is in Glory!! Mom, I will see you one day!! Don't miss me.....look for me soon!

Bye-Bye Binki....

Well.....we did it! We made a trip to Build a Bear. It's our tradition.......to get rid of the Bink!! Sophie was hestitate at first......but surly put her binki in the bear. Not one, not two, but three binkis! She picked her favorite bear......the panda bear! She did not want a doggie, nor a pink bunny. She has a love for pandas!! However...she has not been sleeping well bec of the no binks. She will have to get used to it! 3 down......0 to go!!!

A clean house.......AWWWW

The girls spent the night at Papa and Meme's and today I cleaned without any interruptions. It's amazing how fast you can clean a house without any kids around. I can even enjoy and smell the aroma of a clean house! I know this too shall pass......the girls will clean up after themselves. I actually miss them. They are on Gospel Blitz with the fam.

Steven Curtis Chapman......death of his 5 yr old!

Good Morning America had a live interview with Steven Chapman regarding the death of his 5 yr old Maria. She was hit in her driveway by her 17 yr old brother, Will. What a tragedy! I am at loss of words or emotions! Had he been driving slower, smaller vehicle, or even at a different time could this be avoided? Hard to say......God is a Soverign God!! He is in control of EVERYTHING!! His mercies are NEW every morning....all I can say is.......God has brought them through this tough trial. Their interview brought GLORY to God to all the world. I am amazed how they exalted the Lord.....humbly! It gives me a renewed love and watch/care over my girls. Thank you Lord for my precious jewels! May I bring them up in nurture and admonition of the Lord! Lord. give me strenght, patience, gentleness, and love for my family!!

Jesse passed his PE exam!!

It's been a long 3 years of studying, sweating, praying, and hoping for Jesse! It has come to an end! The Lord taught us perserverance!! Jesse will get his certificate of Professional Engineer. Now what? How can the Lord use this piece of paper to further His kingdom? We are once again.....giving God the credit, honor, and praise!! Thank you Lord!!! You are AWESOME!!

Abby's bump on top of her foot!!

I am praising the Lord for His goodness, greatness, and soverignty! What a mighty God we serve! About 3 days ago, I discovered a lump on top of Abby's left foot....about an inch in diameter. It's physical apprearence was spongy, liquid filled, and could move side to side. I panicked! Since it was soft.....I almost ruled out a tumor.....but Satan wants me to doubt the Lord and have my imagination go wild!! The bible says, "cast down imagination". Hence, I took her in to her ped doctor and had an x-ray done. The doctor called me back within 4 hours......it's not a tumor,....since it's not attached to her bone. Usually, a tumor is connected to the bone, is opaque and firm. A Gangloin cyst is on extremeties....We will see an Orthpedic specialist soon. All I can say is......God is good!! His blessings are poored out on us!

Abby still struggling.......

It's been over a month since Abby had her 1st bout of the stomach virus. And only 6 days since her 2nd. After she finished her dinner~chicken a la king~she asked if I was "happy of her". And also stated that now she doesn't have to go to the hospital in the ambulance! About 3 weeks ago, Jesse and I were frustrated that she was not eating. So we said she would have to go see Dr.Randle if she didn't eat. I am so convicted that I put her in the state she is in. The bible says not to bring your child to wrath. Patience was what I was lacking. Lord, forgive me for not trusting you. Lord, give me the grace with Abby! May you heal her!! I think she is getting better. What is so ironic is Lucas Peach has a similar situation. He has vomited 3 times since January. He does not have an appetite either. But they both play fine,too! Really strange!

God wants you to love Him w/ all your Mind!

I have had the winter blues......it's been raining all month! Last week, I took out my wisdom teeth, yes all 4!! I was complaining of my jaws hurting. Well, a week has passed and my jaws are still hurting. So, I researched and I think I might have TMJ. I have all the symptoms, clicking upon opening my mouth, sore jaws, headaches, dizziness, sensitive teeth, sensitivity to light, and stuffiness, ringing, and buzzing in the ears. It also states it can get you depressed. That's probably why I have this winter blues!! I am not sleeping well at nights as well. I wake up feeling like I did not have a good night's rest.

Truth for kids had a devotional about loving God with all your mind (Mark 12:30)! It stated, "Sometimes the Holy Spirit might speak to our hearts and ask, "What are you thinking about right now?" Not because He doesn't know, but because He wants us to notice our own thoughts. And sometimes we are embarrassed to answer Him. Why? Because we're thinking selfish thoughts, vain thoughts, worried thoughts, proud thoughts – thoughts that have nothing to do with Him." I was convicted......so I will ask God to help me think good thoughts........Phil 4:8

It's been ahwile......I miss mom!

The rain is comin' down! The Lord knows we need this rain. We put it this way......Thank the Lord it's not dreary like this all the time!! Where do I start? Mom has passed away on Nov 14th, the day before Abby's birthday. Her death was so peaceful. Her suffering was so hard to watch. God's mercy and grace was SUFFIECIENT!! It's going to be almost 3 months since mom's passing! Seems like yesterday! She is now dancing, eating, and happy in heaven! There was 6 people who got saved at her funeral. Glenn preached......"Do you know Jesus". My mom would always ask her doctors and oncologist that question. The last days went so fast.....from weeks to days only! She was bed bound for 2 days. The last day at the hospital, she waited for me and said "Tammy" and went into a coma. We had to give more morphine and morphine! Her breath got weaker and weaker! Then, she halfway opened her eyes and had her last breath. There was even a smile on her face! I miss her greatly!! Mom, I will see you one day!!

Tammy