Kimchi and Seaweed soup is SUPER good for you esp when you are pregnant!

Since I have been home alone from church....I have a cold, I have had a lot of time to ponder on my pregnancy and the cravings I have. I just had half of jar of kimchi. I am def craving salty things with this baby. Kimchi is soooo good for you! Especially when the nutrients produced during the fermentation process(lactic acid bacteria and acetic acid) help protect against cancer and germs. Another korean dish is Seaweed soup! Traditionally in Korea, after a woman gives birth; she eats this delicious and nutrious seaweed soup for up to three months. It’s healing properties as well as help with breastmilk production is well touted in the old country . I am very Americanized since I grew up in the U.S. almost all my life. I want to bring a canteen full of the seaweed soup and rice to my birthing suite to have after the delivery.

Baby H.......11 weeks

Since the last post.......things changed!! God has blessed us w. another child for His glory!! This pregnancy has been different! At first, no naseau. Really not bad. Times of quesiness and times of tiredness!~ God has given me grace!! I saw the baby at 9.5wks on the ultrasound! I saw the babies legs and arms move....how amazing that God can create such distinct features at a early age!! God is an amazing Creator!! I pray that this baby is healthy and that we can raise this baby for His honor and His glory~~ Til next time~~

Tiny Footprints......Good bye baby at 4weeks!!

This past weekend has been a whirlwind of emotions: shocked to excited to sad to depressed to puzzled to worried. I was 4 days late on my cycle and I took a pregnancy test on Thursday and there was a faint positive pregnancy line. So I was suspicious so I took another one 3 hours later......negative. So instead of playing this guessing game......I went to the doctor's office on Friday. I took a urine test and it was negative!! Since I am always on time w. my cycle and I did have a positive test.....she ordered a blood test. In the meantime.....Jesse and I are getting use to the fact I might be pregnant! What a shock! At first, Jesse was probably not liking the idea! But we knew it is God's will and his timing! So, Sat I am getting these light menstral cramps. That evening I started my period. By Sunday a good heavy flow w. more than normal cramps. So now we are confused and came to the conclusion we were not pregnant! What a let down! Jesse proposed that we should pray about having another baby! I thought that would never come from Jesse this side of heaven! So, Sunday night I get my test results from the blood test......POSITIVE! I say WHAT! Now this is confusing!! So am I preggo or not! To top it off.....my period stopped after just one day. My obgyn ordered a quantative test on Monday showing how much hcg I have. I got it back today, Tuesday. It was a 3. Here is a guide as to where your HCG should be at during pregnancy.

Gestational Age Expected HCG
0-1 Week 5-50
1-2 Weeks 50-500
2-3 Weeks 100-5,000
3-4 Weeks 500-10,000
4-5 Weeks 1,000-50,000
5-6 Weeks 10,000-100,000
6-8 Weeks 15,000-200,000
2-3 Months 10,000-100,000

So since my results is at a 3......I am no longer pregnant. My first initial blood work was positive....so it had to register 5 or above. It is decreasing.....MISCARRIAGE. I thought I would never suffer a miscarriage. What an empty feeling....feeling of getting robbed. A gift that was taken away. But I rest in God's PERFECT will and I thank God that he did not let me go through all the morning sickness and get attached!! My mom is enjoying him/her right now. What should I name this baby?

Due date Jan 4, 2011

Good bye baby for now.....see you soon! Tell Harmie I said hi!!

I dedicate this poem to you baby:

These are my footprints,
so perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints
never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
for now I have wings.
These tiny footprints were meant
for other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
in the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
in each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
if you just give me the chance.
You will see my tiny footprints,
in the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
and call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints,
are found on Mommy and Daddy's hearts.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll never truly part."

Southern CA Vacay

We are rested, refreshed, and revived! One more family vacation to add to our family memories! I praise the Lord for His provision and protection! We made this same trip 4 years ago....and I can say it was MUCH easier this time around. We did Disney for 2 days, rented a 4 person bike to ride on Balboa Island, Manhattan beach, American Girl Factory, korean food at Korea town, walked down Rodeo drive, San Diego Zoo, dinner at Seaport village, outlets at Camarillo, sushi at Ventura, and tide pool at Marrow Bay....in a nut shell!! We just had a wonderful time together! Thank you Lord for our sweet family! May we glorify you everyday of our lives!! May we build more memories to come!!

Daddy had the day off.....

When daddy stays home on a school day.....it throws our schedule off! We got a room in the library to do some school. Went to lunch at a Mexican Restaurant. Daddy went to piano lessons w. us! Just had a relaxing family day! It's amazing.....when daddy is home.....alot of stress is released! He is my rock!

All girls want to be a ballerina......

We go to ballet lessons on Mondays and Thursdays. Sophie looks forward to ballet all day! "Is it 4:00 yet mommy" is what I often hear on Mondays! I think every girl wants to twirl around in her tutu and dance like a prima ballerina! But for now.....it's been the long haul for the Harder girls! They work really hard in school so they can go to ballet!

Homeschooling.....or Homeschooler?

Leah has been doing the A Beka's DVD's for 2 years now! She has thrived! I could not teach her what she knows now!! I don't have the time, resource, or the know-how! Ask her to quote a poem....I love the Shadow poem!!

Make a moment in March

Today I will be starting a project where I capture a moment of the girls lives everyday in March. Everyone asks....."How do you do it.....HOMESCHOOL", "Awww....are they in Ballet?", "Wow....they are in Swimteam?", "They go to gymnastics too?" So my camera will be an addition to the family this month. This will help me remember their stage in life right now!! Life goes by so fast!! I blink and they are grown!! I better not blink again....they will be going to college!!